Thursday, October 21, 2010

Life As It Is

Read a very interesting note on facebook by a relative of mine. In it she wrote about how she wishes she has times for herself to do things she wants to do. Weekends are spent between families - her own, husbands and just the two of them. I really can relate to that and to her what I can say is : wait till you have kids.

I've been married for over 11 years now, with a son and daughter and my time is fully occupied and spent each waking hours fulfilling their needs. From the moment I wake up till bedtime, I have to : drive them to school, classes, cook their meals, laundry, homework and when I feel like it, clean the house. On top of that, I help my husband with the paperworks of our company from the simple cut and paste quotation/invoice to proposals and calling the bank. The only time I feel any peace is during that few minutes before I fell asleep. Heck, I don't even have a peaceful time in the shower. Someone will now and then knock on the door asking for something.

People keep saying that I have so much free time because they see me playing all these games on facebook. Truthfully, that is considered to be my luxury, where I can stop thinking for awhile. Some people go for pampering like to the salon to get their hair and nails done, massages and facials at the spa... well I don't have that kind of luxury, not that I can't afford it in monetary terms, but I can't afford it in the manner of time. If I go to pamper myself, who will take care of my kids? I'm not like some people who can just dump their kids to other people to look after while they go and have their own time. There's no point for me to do that for I can't truly relax that way knowing that I'm burdening someone else with my responsibility.

I am lucky in a sense that my husband understands me needing the time off sometimes and I can go out with my girlfriends once in a while, or go back to my hometown without him to spend times with my family. And let me play games whenever I have the time. And I do go out with my kids and have our own fun. 

Well, to some people my life sounds boring as hell but to me, tiring and boring as it sounds, it's what I choose to do with my life. And I'm not going to trade it for anything. My husband and kids ARE my life.